| Location | Eston |
| Age | 0 |
| Date of Birth | 5/2002 |
| Date of Death | 5/2002 |
| Visitors | 1,631 since 08/04/2008 |
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John scarth was my son and he was 13 weeks early, making me 27 weeks pregnant.
He was born to soon due to a test for Duchenne Muscular Dystrophy which sadly my 1st born has.
The test carried a 1% chance of miscarrage or early labour.
The next day after the test sadly i went into labour and after 3 long days of trying to stop labour he decided it was time to come out and see us all.
He was 2lbs 6oz and full of jet black hair.
He had breathing dificultys to start with but he was such a fighter he wasnt on the c-pap much at all.
18 days past he was doing fine, doing everything they expected him to do we thought oh great hes gonna come home.
Sadly on the 19th day they told us he needed to be moved to newcastle hospital for treatment on his bowel as his right one has burst so they needed to mend it and put a bag in to give him a break.
He was fighting all the way, he had the operation and came out with a gauze on his open wound, it was awfull to see but we had hope he would be fine.
The doctor said its touch and go as his weight dropped to 1lbs 2oz, They also said that if his kidneys fail then there is nothing they could do.
We still had hope although he was on life support and steroid injections to keep his heart rate up.
30 mins after telling me if his kidneys fail thats it the worst happened
His kidneys did fail.
I did his cares one last time, cleaned his face and bum and tried to be a mum to him with the time i had left, but in the end i asked for him to pass away on my knee as they said there was nothing they could do as he was dying on the machiene.
I held him for 25 mins and they said to me its time hes dying, so we decided to turn the machiene off.
4.10am he passed away with myself his dad and his nanna and grandad and uncle in the room.
As they turned the machiene off and pulled his tube out he took 1 last breath and died.
Worst day of my life ever.
He was born on my 21st birthday and he would be 6 yrs old on the 12th may.
Happy birthday my son
I hope you know i loved you and i still do.
You left behind a brother Jordan lee age 3 at the time
He is 9 now but still remembers you.
I love you my angel
Love always
MUM.
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my son
seven years
it has been now
since i touched your face
and wiped your brow
4.10am to this day
I cleaned your bum
and looked after you
in every single way
You should be here
Not where you are
You should be with me
Not just another star
I long to hold you
and kiss u goodnight
not to sit here longing
to hold u at night
I am your mum
i love you so
im so very sorry
life ended so
i need you now
more than ever
to tell me its ok
and u will forget me never
I will always have
this unfilled gap
where you should be
sat here on my lap
I have my memories
of you my son
there not all good ones
but at least i have some
i held you once
you were so light
i would kiss your head
and wish you goodnight
i came to see you
EVERY day
i couldnt miss
not a second ov any single day
I want you home my son
i know it will never be
your needed elsewhere
but your memories will comfort me
sleep tight my son
i will never forget
the short time we had
memories Ill NEVER forget
all my love
MUM
little star
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happy birthday
happy birthday sweetie, hope u had a good day, mummys missing u loads keep watching over her, help her dry her tears xxxxxxxxx
Happy Birthday Baby
Happy birthday my baby boy i miss you so much and i will be visiting you soon.
I realy wish you were here my hearts hurting so much and i feel like my worlds ending as you should not be in a grave you should be here with me opening presents and playing with balloons and eating cake.
I long to hold you once more and look into your eyes and tell you I LOVE YOU.
I will tell you when i visit you i know its not the same but i hope you hear me.
I love you baby
Your daddy and brother miss you so very much also and your sisters you have never met come with me to visit and your step brother JJ comes along also.
Be at peace sweetheart
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Love you
Hi darling its the day b4 your birthday and im thinking about you loads, I will be visiting you tomorrow with flowers
I love you
Mum.
for kelly
Most people walk in and out of your life.
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But only Loved ones leave footprints
in your heart.
Missing you
Hi my angel i just wanted to say im thinking about you all the time, its only 6 days till what would have been your birthday. You would have been 6 yrs old
Time has gone so fast but i have never ever forgotten you and im going to do your headstone so lovely that you will outshine the rest
Sleep tight my son
I love you,
blesings
i pray for u and ur mummy and i pray for u to watch over ur lovly mummy and daddy and brothers and sisters and to keep them safe and as i know u mummy anddaddy miss u dearly i now 1 day u will meet again but until then i know u little lamb will watch over every body love and always marie and clive xxxxs
Hello John, I've been speaking to your mummy tonight and she is an amazingly strong lady. Sorry you had to leave her, she misses you I'm sure you know. Keep looking after your family from heaven they miss you loads. Give my Olivia a huggle from her mummy. Floaty kisses John xx
Thinking of you son
Good morning angel im thinking about you alot today, I miss you so very much and i just want to hold you and touch you once more but i know i cant. Its killing me inside baby, i know we will meet again one day. till then your always in my thoughts' dreams and in my heart
I LOVE YOU SON
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